Lie to Me (inspired by US series, but not about it actually, not yet)

Hello All!. How are you? Hope everything's fine.

You know, it's been 2 weeks since we "wakareta". And you know what. I'm missing him, I don't know because I miss him or not, but I often dream about him. Almost everyday these last few days. I really hope can make up even we were just separate few days, but he said no, he enjoy his life now and do not wanna change that,. I heard he also plan to go to Kalimantan. I was so surprised. He didn't tell me anything, but why he should be. I am nothing for him now. He told me to think, re-think, review our relationship. But my mind and heart are not in the mood and not one right now. No matter how much I thing, no matter how much I convinced myself this is the best, my heart still miss him, wanna him back, would done anything as long as we could make up. So I've decided to let it, let my body flow, do not want to think too much or feel too much, cause too much is no good at all. I wish I can go back to last a month and fixed things up, but there is no such things exist. So I must move on with my life, I do not want to waste my time. Because I do not know how much longer time I have, we all are. Now I don't even want to think about getting married or build a new relationship with any man. I only want to make myself better and better. if I could made myself do everything for someone why couldn't I do that for myself right?^_^

The only thing I could say id I pray whatever he do right now, wherever he is now, I pray for his health and safe, And whatever he do or will do, I pray for his success and happiness. Maybe that's the only thing I could done right now in this condition. Maybe I cannot be the girl/woman you want, and possibly never, when you believe it is, at least allow me to always pray for you. Even you cannot trust me on any other ways, at least trust me that I pray, I will always pray for you for the best. 

With Love,

Your used to be "Shangna"



Note: You know why I give the title "Lie to Me"? It doesn't make sense if you connect it with the contents, but you know the series "Lie to Me" is about finding the truth, and through this post I conveyed the truth.